Thursday, April 30, 2009

STRANGE

I absolutely LOVE Reba's new song titled "Strange".
Here are part of the lyrics - you'll see why I love it. I think someone was watching me and found themselves a hit song. Below you will also find a link to her live performance of "Strange" at the Country Music Awards.

I laid there feeling sorry for myself
In a bed of kleenex
Stuffin chocolates in my mouth
On the phone with my best friend cussin my ex
He broke my heart
Felt like the world had ended
I cried myself to sleep Thinkin I cant get over him

Strange
Talk about luck I woke up
And the sun was shining
Strange
I oughta be in bed with my head
In the pillow cryin over us
But I aint, aint love strange

http://www.onlylyrics.com/lyrics_video.php?grid=8&id=1032248


Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Tattoos and Disappointments

I was so excited to learn there was a Derby hopeful named Square Eddie. Because of his name, I was going to root for him to win the derby and to capture the Triple Crown. Since working as Kerry Cauthen's secretary in the mid-90's, I've never wanted another horse to win the Triple Crown. Mainly because Kerry's older brother is Steve Cauthen, the last jockey to ride a Triple Crown winner. Kerry and I have remained friends and I still tease him that I taught him everything he knows about practicing law. Brand new attorneys have a lot to learn and I had the honor of teaching Kerry what he didn't learn in law school. Kerry and I are about the same age. While working together, he went with Paul and I one night to Tattoo Charlie's. At age 24, I decided I had never done anything I might regret and wanted to do something "bad". I opted for a tattoo - the "in" thing at that time. He and Paul helped me pick it out - and as it turns out - I should have chosen my own tattoo and not left the choice to those two. We waited in line forever (like 5 hours) before it was finally my turn. Emily was with us (age 2-3 yrs at the time) and she was good as gold. Paul finally took her somewhere to eat because she was hungry and I couldn't lose my place in line. While getting the tattoo, I started to black out from a combination of things - mainly the pain and lack of eating. Charlotte (of Tattoo Charlie's) talked me through the blackout explaining everything that was going to happen. In the meantime, she sent for Orange Juice and Oreo's in the back to help me recover. Do I regret the tattoo? Not really - I don't ever have to look at it. It's on my left outside ankle. I made the choice to place it there so that if I ever drove a UPS truck or a Jeep, I could take the doors off and people could see my tattoo. Now that is what young logic is all about! And to think, by that time, I had been married about 6 years and had a small child. Scary...

Kerry and I both moved on from the law firm of Wyatt, Tarrant & Combs. He is now the Managing Partner for Four Star Sales, a thoroughbred sales agency. I moved on, expanding my family, returning to college and ending up in the adoption field. Since I know the Cauthen family, I just wanted them to hold on to the title so to speak.

Anyway, back to my original story. Square Eddie had to drop out of the Kentucky Derby due to a shin injury. So, now I'll have to find another horse to be my favorite. It'll take more than the name this time around... and I probably will not be hoping for a Triple Crown winner this year either.

I may post a picture of my tattoo sometime - come to think of it - I don't even have a picture of my tattoo. Maybe I should take one...

Monday, April 27, 2009

Someone has a birthday coming soon...

Click on the invitation below to read. My creativity was hard at work! Edison absolutely loves horses. It is his favorite word and he calls most everything with 4 legs a horse. He always says the word with a question mark - horse? How cool to come all the way from Guatemala to the USA, live in KY and celebrate your birthday ON Derby Day! I have a big celebration planned with stick horse races and pony rides! I also splurged on a cake made by the Twisted Sifter. Can't wait to post pics of that...



Monday, April 20, 2009

Happy 2nd Birthday Isaac Clay!

Edison was invited to his first social outing with friends the other day. We went to the park to celebrate his best friend's birthday. We call Isaac Clay and Edison "partners in crime" - take a look and let me know if you agree...

Notice the lipstick on both of their cheeks. Those lips came from IC's mom. I am so excited that Edison and Isaac Clay are going to grow up together. Right now, they both go to the same baby sitter, the same church, and our families have been friends forever! My mom grew up with Isaac Clay's paternal grandparents; Isaac Clay's dad and I have known each other all of our lives and got into some trouble of our own - LOL! They will be playing soccer and t-ball before we know it!


As you can see below, Edison had tons of fun at the park with his friends. He can't wait to celebrate his 2nd birthday. It's coming soon - on Derby Day!!!





God knew I needed this rainbow...

As Edison and I were eating dinner tonight, I had to move his high chair around because the sun was shining very brightly onto his tray. I looked out the back door thinking that I needed to adjust the blinds and could not believe that it was raining as hard as it was. I immediately knew that with the sun shining so brightly, there had to be a rainbow, so I grabbed my camera and went on a mission to find it. The picture is not the best, but you can see it. God knew I needed to see a rainbow to remind me that no matter how many promises are broken by man, His promises will always be kept.





Being the Google queen that I am, I went on a search tonight for quotes about rainbows. Enjoy them and give me your thoughts.

Life is like a rainbow. You need both the sun and the rain to make its color appear. Author Unknown

The way I see it, if you want the rainbow you gotta put up with the rain. Dolly Parton

“May God give you...For every storm a rainbow, for every tear a smile, for
every care a promise and a blessing in each trial. For every problem life sends,
a faithful friend to share, for every sigh a sweet song and an answer for each
prayer.” Irish Blessing

“May those who love us, love us; and those who don't love us, may God turn their hearts; and if He doesn't turn their hearts, may he turn their ankles so we'll know them by their limping.” Irish Blessing

The soul would have no rainbow had the eyes no tears. John Vance Cheney

Let no one who loves be unhappy... even love unreturned has its rainbow. James Matthew Barrie

Somewhere over the rainbow, skies are blue, and the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true. Lyman Frank Baum

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Mama's Christmas Present

This is a counted-cross-stitch picture I started for my Mom as a Christmas gift in 2007. I gave it to her on Christmas Day; however, I still had a few tobacco leaves around the edge to finish and some backstitching to do. I took it the sampler home with me and intended to get it back to her before the end of the year.

Fast forward to April, 2009! I explain it this way - Life Happened! When I started the project, I had just finished my degree and had started a new job. I had all of this free time on my hands because I no longer had papers due or tests to study for. That didn't last long as my new job led to finding a child who needed a Mom and Dad. We started the adoption process and I got side-tracked with all the paper-chasing and then preparing for the baby, taking care of my girls, etc. Our little bundle of joy finally arrived and THEN, along came the divorce which pretty much shattered my ability to function for awhile.

Anyway, I finally returned to the land of the living. I pulled Mama's Christmas present out of its hiding place and went back to work on it with a goal of having it finished, framed and on her wall by Easter. Mission accomplished! Many hours was spent on this project and it was worth every stitch! I knew, as soon as I saw this pattern, that I wanted to do it for my mom. The pattern is a Shaker pattern and it reminds me and other family membrs of my PaDaddy's tobacco farm. PaDaddy and Nannie were my great-grandparents.

While typing this blog entry, I started thinking about all the jobs I had while growing up in a tobacco farming family. I know I have some blog followers and bloggy friends who are not from Kentucky and probably have no clue about raising tobacco. I come from a long line of Kentucky Burley Tobacco growers! I am proud of my heritage and although I do not smoke or chew tobacco, I understand the hard work that goes into raising this crop. As a young girl, I helped my mom and dad with their tobacco crop and it is probably some of the most tiring work I have ever done. Raising tobacco keeps a farmer busy through all seasons and it keeps their kids busy during summer break and on winter snow days!!! If I have time, I may finish this story another day...

Monday, April 13, 2009

Etiquette and The Professional Pincher

My girls were on Spring Break last week. All three kids spent the first half of the week with Wasband and then spent the last half of the week with me.

As a getaway for the girls, I made arrangements to spend one night in a guest house owned by my aunt and uncle in a nearby city. The house has been beautifully restored and is a lot of fun for kids. Great hiding places, 2-1/2 stories, themed suites and a jacuzzi tub are just a few of the highlights. The kids love to visit and it is a fairly inexpensive getaway. I, too, was looking forward to it. It's nice to leave home and leave responsibility behind - to be able to sit on the couch and watch a movie without worrying about laundry and other household chores you should be doing.

Let's just say, I didn't get much rest. Each of the girls invited a friend. The first fight began over who was going to sleep in the Africa suite on the top floor. Granted, there is room for 4 to sleep in that room, but they didn't all want to sleep in the same room. This is a recurring theme in my home, the teen and tween do not like to share (or even be together most of the time)! After showing their friends the house, my teen and her friend came down and informed me that they would not fight for the Africa suite if I would let them stay in the Kentucky room. Well, the Kentucky room was the room I wanted. I was looking forward to a big King Size bed and easy access to the jacuzzi; however, to avoid any problems, I told the teen and her friend they could stay in the Kentucky room and that Edison and I would take the Texas room on the first floor.

I didn't mind the Texas room - it has a nice queen size bed which is plenty big for one person and Edison would be sleeping in his portable crib anyway. I went to bed around 11:00 that night, listening to the soundtrack of "Lonesome Dove" on the CD and reading a book about the Alamo. I had just closed my eyes around midnight when I had the eery feeling that someone had opened the door and was standing in my room. My back was toward the door and I lay still waiting for something to happen. That was when I heard "Mama" in a very soft whisper. By that time, my brain had realized I was probably going to hear that word and therefore I did not jump out of my skin. "Huh?" I replied. It was my tween who said that they couldn't sleep up there in the Africa Suite - it was too scary. She then told me that they had tried sleeping in the Shaker Room, across from where teen and friend were sleeping, but they couldn't sleep there either. I then asked, do you want to sleep on the pull out sofa in the living room? Of course they did! So at midnight, I was pulling the sofa bed out, finding sheets, blankets and pillows and setting up a place for the two tweens to sleep in the room right next to mine. I can't help but smile when I think about this. As much as they want to be big and brave - they still need Mama!

It wasn't until the next day that I realized both tweens had each taken a jacuzzi bath and two showers each. The teens had also helped themselves to more showers and baths than were needed. As I was walking around the house making sure things were still in place, I realized that three of the four girls had opened a new toothbrush, helped themselves to a new razor, and all four girls used a new towel each and every time they got into the water! It was then I realized that I would probably not get a jacuzzi bath because I needed to straighten up all the beds that had been "tried out" through the night and put a load of towels in the dryer.

I had to have an etiquette talk with the girls but I didn't want to hurt their feelings. I just casually mentioned later that the toothbrushes, razors, toothpaste, etc. were there for people who forgot to bring those things and were not for them to just help themselves. I got one response from my tween's friend who said that she had forgotten her toothbrush. I also told them that I had paid for 5 people to stay in the house and when the housekeeper came she would probably think there had been 25 people there with all of the wet towels. I told them I thought they were clean enough after all the baths that they could have re-used their towels. No one said a word.

As it turned out, I got most of the towels washed, the toddler down for a nap and jumped into the jacuzzi while the towels were in the dryer. It was an enjoyable bath - up until the Tornado warning! I hear little girls screaming and running up the stairs, banging on my door and yelling that there is a Tornado Watch. I remained calm and said, if it's a watch, that just means that a tornado can happen. It looks like the sun is shining outside to me. A few minutes later, I hear them running up the stairs again, this time they say there is a Tornado Warning in the county where we live. I remained calm and told them that we were not in that county right now. I told them what county and city we were in right now and they went away. Next, I hear them running up the stairs again and this time I hear the toddler crying from all the noise they have made. They say, the sirens are going off outside! There is a Tornado Warning for us!!! By this time, I am getting out of the tub and trying to look outside. The weather looks great out one window but my - it was black out the other window! I quickly got dressed and went downstairs to watch the weather with the girls. They were all a little scared. I was trying to laugh with them and show them where we were on the map and tell them all the things you say to try to calm your children's fears until the storm was over.

The girls were full of questions and worries. Where do we go if there is a tornado? Can we all fit in that closet? Do you think my dad is okay? Can I call my dad? He's not answering - do you think he is okay? I'm worried about Daddy's girlfriend - she lives where the tornado was. Have you ever been in a tornado? What does a tornado cloud look like? Have you seen one? How close are we to where the tornado is?

As it turns out, a tornado actually touched down at the county line but other than lots and lots of rain and some pea sized hail, it wasn't much of a storm. When I was a little girl I was terrified of storms but I'm really not anymore. That's a good thing since I now live alone and it is Springtime in Kentucky!

I haven't told you much about Edison. He enjoyed walking up and down and up and down and up and down the stairs of the house. That is what he did most of the time we were there. When he wasn't playing on the stairs, he was pinching the girls. My tween's friend was picked up by her mom later in the day. She told her mom that she had a good time and that Edison was a Professional Pincher! I wonder where that will get him in life...

Until next time

Hoppy Easter!

Here are some Easter pics for you to enjoy! The first is Edison taking a break from hunting eggs. He was really excited that some of them had "cannie" in them-yummy! The second is Edison checking out what the Easter bunny left in his basket. The next picture is me with my beautiful children on Easter morning. The next three are right after Church on Easter Sunday. Kensley had a soccer game on Saturday. We also had our big family egg hunt on Saturday afternoon at my mom and dad's house. The next picture shows that Kensley was pretty much exhausted. She fell asleep on my mom's couch! The next picture of Kensley was taken earlier in the day. She loves to twirl around in her dress! I love the last picture of Emily and her cousin (my nephew), Jase.



Saturday, April 11, 2009

Things I've Learned in the Past 3 Months

A little over three months ago, I set up my own household and I have learned quite a few things about life, about myself, about everyday things.


Here are just some of the things I have learned:

About my household -
  • Furniture sliders are a girls best friend! I can move every single piece of furniture in my house without the help of a man. You should buy yourself some!
  • Landlords fix things that are broken much more quickly than husbands do.
  • Snakes live in town too.
  • Halogen light bulbs may save energy but they do not last for 6 years!
  • A house is much easier to keep clean without a man living in it but little boys are very messy!

About maintaining a vehicle:

  • I can walk into an auto parts store and find what I need without any help.
  • Sometimes you have to get your Mom to call your mechanic! Especially if the mechanic is taking his sweet time to fix the only vehicle you own and you have to keep borrowing hers!
  • The smell of "doe estrus" will come out of the upholstery of your truck and you can turn a "huntin' truck" into something driveable!
  • Touching a halogen lightbulb for your vehicle will shorten its life; it has something to do with the oil from your skin/fingers - so don't touch it when you replace the one that is bad.
  • I can check the anti-freeze level, the power steering fluid and the oil in my truck. I can also tell you which one is leaking on my driveway!
  • Rotors should be turned each time your tires are rotated (or at least every other time) and tires should be rotated more often than I thought.
  • I am going to need new rotors and new tires in about one month!

I have learned lots of other things about myself and about life and I would love to share them but they may seem "negative" to some who read this and I have promised this blog would not be negative. Personally, I would not consider them "negative" - just truthful - and sometimes the truth hurts.


Monday, April 6, 2009

Grief

I have learned that it is okay to grieve the death of my relationship with Wasband. I have not fully grieved but feel I have gotten through the worst of it. There are so many losses in a divorce. I know as I continue to live life, there will be other things I will grieve. I just pray it will continue to get easier. Here are a few of the things I have grieved the loss of:
  • hopes and dreams for our future together
  • raising my children WITH their father
  • the loss of Wasband's love for me
  • time with my kids
  • growing old together
  • celebrating our 50th Wedding Anniversary (or at least a 40th or 45th - gosh I would have loved to have made it to 20!)
  • the loss of my home and home ownership
  • the loss of a nice vehicle with leather seats and "bun warmers"
  • the Weeping Cherry Tree we planted last Fall
  • the loss of my horses
  • the loss of some of my friends
  • the loss of my neighbors
  • not knowing where my children are or what they are doing sometimes
  • the loss of Wasband's family
  • going to Church together with my spouse and our chidren
  • the standard of living to which I was accustomed
  • living 1/2 mile from my parents in the community where I grew up
  • sharing holidays together
  • sharing our grandchildren together
  • sharing all of the memories we made together
  • watching Wasband raise a son
  • I also lost my cook, my driver, my lawn mower, my lover, my housekeeper, and my best friend

I could go on and on with this list because I have lost so much! What I have realized is that I cannot ignore this. I must grieve my losses in order to recover.

Jeremiah 48:20 says, "Wail and cry out!". Trust me, I have wailed loudly and I have cried out and oh, it makes me feel so much better! It's been a long time now since I "wailed" and the tears don't come as often as they did. I still have difficult days but the hard days are becoming fewer and fewer and there are many more happy days in between!

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Emily & Edison & some other stuff


I live on a street surrounded by little old widow ladies.
Actually, one of them passed away last week.
My next door neighbor has the most beautiful flowers.
Here are some of her tulips right next to my drive that I get to enjoy each day.


This is Emily's dog. His name is RJ and he is a Blue Heeler.
Blue Heeler's are cattle dogs meaning he will nip your heels
to try to get you to go wherever he thinks you need to go!




Here is Emily holding Edison. They love each other soooo much!


Edison loves to play ball - any kind of ball!



Do you think my tractor's sexy?



Emily!! Are you drinking out of a sippy cup?


Edison decides he better drink up, before Emily drinks it all!





Saturday, April 4, 2009

Soccer Game April 4th



Kensley was asked to play on the boys' team today. Most of the guys on the blue team had left for Spring Break, so the "boys" team ended up being mostly a "girls" team. Kensley played really tough today and I was so proud of her. Enjoy some pictures...







Ouch - she fell hard on her shoulder - here she is with her dad as he's helping her work it out.